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Hello friends, it’s me again, gonna try and slide one by you once more.
Yes, it’s true. I’m still alive and kickin’ and I haven’t written anything here in many, many months. Combination of things really. Most notably my own disinterest in what I had to say. And if I’m not interested, I doubt anyone else is. However, due to recent demand I’ve decided to come storming back.
I won’t go back too far or into too much detail as to what’s been happening since I ate that McRib, mostly ‘cause I don’t remember myself. Things have a way of blurring together over the years. Not due to selective memory, excessive consumption or carelessness but mostly because they just do. Time heals all wounds and hindsight is always 20/20 and this is certainly true in my case. Bad times I’ve had either dealing with myself or in dealing with others in my life seem to not seem all that bad anymore. Things that once were once major roadblocks now appear to have just been bumps in the road.
That said, you also can’t go back. What’s done is done and you can’t erase the past; but you can certainly make amends or at least continue moving forward.
The last few months have probably been the most hectic in recent memory. Since late February I’ve touched dirt in 8 states and two countries and aged about ten years. In that time I’ve gotten a chance to catch up with every person I’ve been close to in the last 15 years. Almost…Like I said, you can’t always go back.
Now don’t get me wrong, most of these people I’ve stayed in pretty much constant contact with so it wasn’t some grand re-discovery; just a bunch of it in a short time. It’s been interesting to see all of these people that span my life from the age of thirteen until now and to see in what ways we’ve all changed; and how in many ways that nothing’s changed at all. From a personal standpoint it’s been odd to still be compared with the person I’d hoped I no longer was. In many ways that guy still exists, and reputations are certainly well-earned. People still associate you with that, and that’s fine. The hope however, is that the changes and growth are evident as well. One’s personality and perspective changes over time hopefully, and I certainly hope I’m no exception. Nonetheless, the same people who liked me then seem to still be my friends today, so I guess I’ve been going in the right direction. My only hope is that the person I am in my own mind is evident to those who’s opinions matter to me.
So what’s next? After this 60-day bender I’m in serious need of some reconstruction. I need to make some attempt at undoing the damage done by this recent tour-de-force. I’m going to contact my old buddy Kieth Richards about that blood transfusion thing.
That’s not to say I’m complexly going on the shelf. Old habits die hard and I’m still a sucker for temptation, but I’m finally going to have the time to try earnestly at countering some of that.
I’m going to make the effort to write here more. Those of you who know me know that my creative energy is fueled by attention as well as restlessness. So, post some comments send me emails (monkeydrunknet@gmail.com) and let me know you’re reading and that you think I’m awesome. Forward it to your friends and say things like “check this dude out. I went to high school with him and now he’s this drunk loser in Texas who talks about stupid shit” Or “I don’t know who this is, but I want my hot, 20-year old daughter to go to his house and party”
If you don’t think I’m awesome that’s cool too; in most cases I probably agree. Whatever the case I am prone to laziness and/or lack of focus. If people seem to be reading than I’ll do my best to keep putting out the sweet goodness.
Peace on yourselves
Hello friends, it’s me again, gonna try and slide one by you once more.
Yes, it’s true. I’m still alive and kickin’ and I haven’t written anything here in many, many months. Combination of things really. Most notably my own disinterest in what I had to say. And if I’m not interested, I doubt anyone else is. However, due to recent demand I’ve decided to come storming back.
I won’t go back too far or into too much detail as to what’s been happening since I ate that McRib, mostly ‘cause I don’t remember myself. Things have a way of blurring together over the years. Not due to selective memory, excessive consumption or carelessness but mostly because they just do. Time heals all wounds and hindsight is always 20/20 and this is certainly true in my case. Bad times I’ve had either dealing with myself or in dealing with others in my life seem to not seem all that bad anymore. Things that once were once major roadblocks now appear to have just been bumps in the road.
That said, you also can’t go back. What’s done is done and you can’t erase the past; but you can certainly make amends or at least continue moving forward.
The last few months have probably been the most hectic in recent memory. Since late February I’ve touched dirt in 8 states and two countries and aged about ten years. In that time I’ve gotten a chance to catch up with every person I’ve been close to in the last 15 years. Almost…Like I said, you can’t always go back.
Now don’t get me wrong, most of these people I’ve stayed in pretty much constant contact with so it wasn’t some grand re-discovery; just a bunch of it in a short time. It’s been interesting to see all of these people that span my life from the age of thirteen until now and to see in what ways we’ve all changed; and how in many ways that nothing’s changed at all. From a personal standpoint it’s been odd to still be compared with the person I’d hoped I no longer was. In many ways that guy still exists, and reputations are certainly well-earned. People still associate you with that, and that’s fine. The hope however, is that the changes and growth are evident as well. One’s personality and perspective changes over time hopefully, and I certainly hope I’m no exception. Nonetheless, the same people who liked me then seem to still be my friends today, so I guess I’ve been going in the right direction. My only hope is that the person I am in my own mind is evident to those who’s opinions matter to me.
So what’s next? After this 60-day bender I’m in serious need of some reconstruction. I need to make some attempt at undoing the damage done by this recent tour-de-force. I’m going to contact my old buddy Kieth Richards about that blood transfusion thing.
That’s not to say I’m complexly going on the shelf. Old habits die hard and I’m still a sucker for temptation, but I’m finally going to have the time to try earnestly at countering some of that.
I’m going to make the effort to write here more. Those of you who know me know that my creative energy is fueled by attention as well as restlessness. So, post some comments send me emails (monkeydrunknet@gmail.com) and let me know you’re reading and that you think I’m awesome. Forward it to your friends and say things like “check this dude out. I went to high school with him and now he’s this drunk loser in Texas who talks about stupid shit” Or “I don’t know who this is, but I want my hot, 20-year old daughter to go to his house and party”
If you don’t think I’m awesome that’s cool too; in most cases I probably agree. Whatever the case I am prone to laziness and/or lack of focus. If people seem to be reading than I’ll do my best to keep putting out the sweet goodness.
Peace on yourselves
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